Gone with the wind?

Gone with the wind?

Posted by Abstraction Personified

Funny you get associated with material things so much that it hurts to let them go. Maybe even willingly. Its like a part of your soul has been torn apart. Or maybe happiness being sucked out of your mortal being? You feel a loss. A non-retrievable loss. Then there's this pang of immense sadness. Its like something important in your life is missing. There is this hollowness around. The feeling when all the good memories with that one material thing are just not enough. When you want it back.... And you want it back desperately..!

Dear Baleno.

You were my first car here at Pakistan. You picked my weight when I thought I had nothing around. All the good trips we had on you. All the amazing rides. All the long drives. The terrible terrible accident. And that you survived it! :) Oh, I miss all those times I had you around. Its like every important memory, good or bad, is somehow associated with you!

I shall miss you and I shall miss you A LOT.

P.S. Yes, I'm a freak who writes a blog post on her car, addresses it, talks to it and maybe secretly cries over it too.

A good moment otherwise. Or maybe...

A good moment otherwise. Or maybe...

Posted by Abstraction Personified

A good song in the background.
Time to stay alone for a while and calm your nerves.
Let the world know you don't give a crap to all the BS.
And give yourself the much deserved break from all the drama and hypocrisy.

http://grooveshark.com/s/Dil+Ko+Tumse/3cxylx?src=5

P.S. Can't quite figure out how to embed the song. Hence, just the link.

Swirling Storm

Swirling Storm

Posted by Abstraction Personified

How do you find the mental will to write when your insides are crumbling down and you're shattered to the core?

How do you face yourself when all you want to do is run away.... run away from yourself?

How, in the world, do you fix everything when you...yourself..are the one who spoiled it in the first place?

Hah. Wow. The ghosts which haunt you are actually memories of your past. YOUR memories. The memories YOU created YOURSELF. WILLINGLY.

Despise yourself, NEVER! Oh well. What do you do when you are left with no other option? How do you defeat the monsters then? The monsters that reside deep inside you?! How do you slay THAT dragon?! How, in heavens, do you banish those ghosts??!!

You want to flee.

You CAN'T!

You want to escape.

You CAN'T!

You don't want to think about it.

 You CAN'T!

You want to shut it off...shut it away..in the deepest darkest corner of your head.

Haha. Try that!!! You CAN'T! :D

You want to heal the wounds.

HAHAHA. Isn't it a little too early for that? Oh and what about the scars anyway? They would still be there.. You definitely CAN'T!  :D

You want to fix everything.

Error: Damage beyond repair!! *beep* Damage beyond repair!! *beep* Damage bey........ Oh just blast it! You most certainly CAN'T!! :D

You want to die.

HAHA. You shall die EACH day. You shall face the consequences, here and now...there and then!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

^ And that was my conscious laughing at me!!