I went down the rabbit hole..

I went down the rabbit hole..

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 I went down the rabbit hole..

I promised myself I wouldn't..

I walked down the memory lane.. 

I had long forgotten existed..

I made myself forget.. 

Locked away in a tiny corner of my heart.. 

The moments.. the big feelings.. the tiny flutters.. the people..

I felt like a stranger.. an intruder.. walking through memories I barely remember as my own..

Seeing a version of myself that no longer exists.. The version long-forgotten by myself.. 

Do you remember? Or have you forgotten too? Tucked me in a tiny corner of your heart? Or thrown out altogether??

How is it that one song, one guitar string, one gust of wind, sweeps you right back to the beginning..

I am still here.. still me.. but nobody I knew as my own no where in plain sight..

The world evolves.. the wind changes.. and there you are a decade later.. reliving those days.. not as your own.. but as an observer, a harsh critic..

How far have I come? How much has changed?

I wish present-me could hold a decade-ago-me's hand, look her in the eye and tell her in full confidence "You're going to be alright! Life might not look the way you are planning, it may not have even a single person of whom you are planing to live it with, who you call your own, but you're going to have so much more, you're going to breathe so much better, you're going to live so much fuller.. YOU are going to be alright. I PROMISE." <3

And we meet again

And we meet again

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Incoherent Thoughts

Its been years. So much has happened. We've come so far from where we started. Life turned out to be better than anything I ever expected. Achieved so many things, left so many behind. I can safely say I've grown.. as a person.. as a human being.. I've found compassion. Thats important. Very.

I've also found my constant. Thats also important. VERY.

Funny thing is my constant isn't - well - CONSTANT. It keeps on growing... getting better with time - like wine and cheese does. If that makes sense?

Companionship is a gift. My family is part of my constant. Finding the right person to start it with was of absolute importance. Got that part right, I guess.. The right one lets you explore yourself, find yourself... the way you've never been explored.... from the deepest points to the most shallow ones.

Shallow - thats one thing I've always hated. Loathed. Not anymore, I guess. I've developed a special appreciation for "Shallow". It takes some nerve to be that, or the lack of.. Im not sure. I think the entire idea has a very materialistic touch to it..

After all these years I've grown to dislike materialism.. The only things you REALLY need to be happy are the clothes at your back, food in your stomach and ofcourse a nice comfy bed. The rest is just noise and luxury.. It makes you sluggish, slow, purposeless. 

Purposelessness is definitely a killer. To survive life you dont need one but to LIVE it you HAVE to have a purpose.. a longing.. a bitter ache that keeps you awake at night. Thankfully thats the other part of my constant.

For now, im happy.. content with my contants.. :)

Crazy Laughter!

Crazy Laughter!

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The best moments in ones life are those which are unplanned, spontaneous. Maybe the ones spent with your closest friends.

Just in the middle of a normal day, you see them, do stuff together, go crazy wild with laughter at the random-est jokes ever... jokes that the rest of the world won't even be able to comprehend.

Funny, in that one instant..one moment..one small second you live so much. There's so much to cherish. There's so much more added to the memories you've made together. So much more that you wont be able to forget.. Forever and ever!

Miles apart from family, but still with family. :)