I went down the rabbit hole..

I went down the rabbit hole..

Posted by Abstraction Personified

 I went down the rabbit hole..

I promised myself I wouldn't..

I walked down the memory lane.. 

I had long forgotten existed..

I made myself forget.. 

Locked away in a tiny corner of my heart.. 

The moments.. the big feelings.. the tiny flutters.. the people..

I felt like a stranger.. an intruder.. walking through memories I barely remember as my own..

Seeing a version of myself that no longer exists.. The version long-forgotten by myself.. 

Do you remember? Or have you forgotten too? Tucked me in a tiny corner of your heart? Or thrown out altogether??

How is it that one song, one guitar string, one gust of wind, sweeps you right back to the beginning..

I am still here.. still me.. but nobody I knew as my own no where in plain sight..

The world evolves.. the wind changes.. and there you are a decade later.. reliving those days.. not as your own.. but as an observer, a harsh critic..

How far have I come? How much has changed?

I wish present-me could hold a decade-ago-me's hand, look her in the eye and tell her in full confidence "You're going to be alright! Life might not look the way you are planning, it may not have even a single person of whom you are planing to live it with, who you call your own, but you're going to have so much more, you're going to breathe so much better, you're going to live so much fuller.. YOU are going to be alright. I PROMISE." <3