A battle with the nemesis of your own

A battle with the nemesis of your own

Posted by Abstraction Personified

Every man in this entire world has a nemesis of his own. Nemesis - that brings about the worst in him; Every human suffers at the hands of his very own nemesis. Nemesis, which leads to defeats after defeats. Nemesis, which drives him towards the dark side... Nemesis, which conspires against him. Every... single... solitary... time... to defeat and subdue his very own self.

I might as well be the target of my own nemesis, like a story trapped in a plot whole. Suffering the same fate that millions do - Fighting - a never ending battle with one's self... A battle in which its you who is the contender and the victim: Doesn't matter who wins, the because you lose; Whoever grabs the title of victory, the misery is inflicted upon you, the wounds are imparted on you by your own self.

What kind of battle is that?! How do you fight something of that sort? To hurt your own self yet not hurt yourself - is it not an irony of epic proportions?! What exactly goes wrong between the two souls - the good and the bad - dwelling inside you.... that leads to such a turmoil?

In this world of fuzzy logic, its hard to expect the good to conquer and the evil to meet defeat in absolute terms. The world operates in the shades of grey. But wait, wouldn't this suggest the nonexistence of your nemesis? But then, I wonder, the little grey regions are also a fusion of tiny miniature black and white dots: that would suggest there is not one but a million of your nemeses and a million of tiny yous inside one big YOU, no? But wait, the grey is achieved only when there is a perfect balance between the blacks and whites.... Does that not, completely, defy the principal of fuzzy logic? Does that not explain the world still operates with the ideal logic?

Whatever is the case, the idea of one enemy and one you AND the idea of a million tiny enemies and a million of tiny yous living inside your skin is still haunting:

Fighting a million tiny you-enemies to get an approximate flee from their sinister traps.

Or

Fighting one big, huge, strong enemy for once and for all. An enemy which is hard to defeat. An enemy whose strength is unthinkable, unimaginable. An enemy, from whom, if you lose, you lose for good. If you lose, there's a wounded ego and a wounded pride. Worst of all, a wounded self.

What thought would you take refuge in?

A million little enemies, a million little battles and an approximate result or one strong enemy, one big battle and one definitive result?

 I, for now, am utterly confused and unable to register my choice.